Love Sucks.

Joseph kept mentioning i 'should' find someone to marry "at my age".

Joseph even threatened me that life is too short to waste and how boring it is if you keeps single.

Joseph dared to say that if a person keeps single over six months,

he/she will so used to be him/herself for life and this is horrible.

but in fact,

what i am really anxious is:

"what if i cannot find anyone who really loves me and i also love him back?"

this is really a crucial issue and this question keeps haunting me during my trip of the summer of 2009.

while i saw the couple around me in the street,

i asked myself:

"he can find love, she can find love,

but where is my love??"

even though some females are really really "not-attemping",

she can still grab a cute guy holding hands with her, walking on the street, enjoying the sunshine and laughing.

but i simply just cant find one who can really talk and share my feelings and passions with me.

(but in fact i've seen many cute guys in paris and got some flerts as well....maybe paris is the place to settle for next time :P hahaha~)

maybe this is a curse to me, from god.

i have running out of my love-coda......

in terms of love, i am walking towards the end.

no one is going to show up any further.

i have to stand alone in my rest of life.

i need to be independent, strong and taking good care of myself from now on.

because no one is going to share all my happiness and sadness with me,

any more.

be prepared.

coz the era has arrived.

(ps: this is simply a very sentimental article to disclose my weakness and my scareness inside my feelings.

you can simply skip it if you feel that i am too pathetic.

it's okay to feel so coz i firmly believe that everyone has his own fear inside his mind.

mine, for now, is just this issue.

and i can tell you that i am very very very scared of it.

not because i really need a guy but it's so sad that i can not find a soul mate to share my feelings any longer.

this is the point makes my life feel hollow.

and honestly, not too many people can really write down what they fear at the moment.

if you don't believe so, try write down your deep fear now and you will know what i am talking about.)